The Hardest Decision I’ve Ever Made Was to Stay

By Tracy Schruder

The hardest decision I’ve ever made was to stay.
I stayed amongst the chaos and the heartbreak.
To stay connected to the unconscious realm.
I stayed connected with my roots.
I even made the decision to stay even when it broke me a bit.
I chose to stay when everyone else left, to
stay when no one else could work the shift.
I chose to stay in my faith when others left me because of it.
I stay in the moment to witness it all.
I stay without reason, to hold the space for those who need it.
I choose to stay in the divine energy of love and wellbeing even when I was being criticized for it.
I chose and choose to stay the course.

Why? Because I grew in a state of stay.
Everything that did not kill me made me stronger.

I Stayed to feel each sliver in my heart, plucked out by my presence, expecting each wound to slam shut through healing.
I chose to feel the pain and do it anyway. I am here and I am who I am because I made the hardest decision to stay.
No matter what comes, I stay.